Happy New Year

Hi all,

Wishing you all a happy and prosperous new year. :)

With Love,
Randeep

Dear you [2]

Dear you,

Do you know how happy I am to have you? When the word friendship is being talked too much. I don't like that word. That is why I call your nickname always. When I see and hear the stories of how others are, I find how lucky we are. Of course there were ups and downs in our friendship. But I never felt bad about you. Because I know you'll never hurt me. Even though if you say something that may hurt me, I know you didn't mean it. But it never happened from you. I really think there was something from me because I'm not that good in predetermining how my words would interpret. But those are just words. May be one can think of something and when put into words they may come with another meaning. That can happen. And it happens often with me. But as I told before they are just words. Who can read other's mind? I was always happy when with you. Smoking those weeds and listening to your mad ideas.

I always felt happy when you won something. I was always proud of you. I felt happy even when we both tried and only you succeed. Because I never felt lost when victory was with you. But you know some bastards are there. They will come and tease the one who failed, telling he is jealous of the other. They just want to ruin a friendship. You know such people exists. And I hate them. I'm telling you all these because some people made me mad doing all this. And I hate people who make mean comments. You know they just do it to hurt us. And there are some people who even make mean comments before the dining table. I have no idea how much money I owe you on account of the food we ate. But whenever I'd money I used spend it. I know there is no meaning in saving it for future. No one can say we will be alive tomorrow. We are some souls meet in a small space for a small time. So why would one quarrel for such silly matters. But it hurts me when people say about the bills they paid weeks ago. And I hate those people who keeps the things we said carelessly or as jokes and later mention them. Now I know how good you are as a person. And there are people who watch whatever we do and interprets our deeds according to their weird thoughts. They are the most dangerous. They will say things we can't even imagine. I love you so much because we were never like that.

And there was never a competition between us. I think that is the main point. I've seen friendships break just because of it. We never felt that one of us is superior to the other. And another thing is that we never made fun of our parents. There are lots of people who do that telling their friendship is very strong and they don't feel anything doing so. But I don't believe that. Who won't feel sad when one calls bad words on their parents? And if you watch them you can see that their friendship won't survive much time. And I don't understand how people can hurt us and still talk to us as they didn't do anything. Or as they-did-something-and-they-don't-give-a-damn manner. When I get the feeling that I might have hurt you I won't be able to look at you. I'll be feeling guilty. And when I'm really hurt by somebody I can't even say a word.

But one thing I'm afraid of is the situations such you are in trouble and sad. I won't have any idea what to say to u. How to comfort you. I have always found me searching for words in such situations. Or I'll say something very frank. It will be practical but it would be the worst thing one can say at that time. And I apologize if I'd failed in such situations. And it was easy in my case. When I was sad. I just had to look at you. You have a cute funny face. Don't laugh assole. I'm telling the truth. And the things you do will make everybody laugh. I'm happy to have such a wonderful friend.

Several times we had thought we lost the heat of it. When the distance became larger and when the routines changed. But we never gave up. I think it is only because of you, it still survives. You are too good. I wish if everyone has a friend like you. And a friendship just like ours.

I was in hell of a mood. Feel better now. :) And there is a lot of I's me's and you's. Don't think I'm boasting off something. Everything in this world makes me feel too small. And I feel we are still children. And as somebody told. There is no seven wonders to a child. There are seven million. And you and our friendship are among them.

Loving you,
Hugs

You, me, Revolution and Love

It is very calm and quiet today.
Yes I noticed.

The climate is also nice.
Yes I wish if I could run out and play.

It is sad that we are statues.
Don't ever remind me that.

I wish one day there will be a revolution to free us.
No. Human beings will never understand our pain.

why?
Because they don't know that "Everything has a shape has a soul too".

But I still dream about revolution.
Do you believe in revolutions?

Yes.
But not me. They will never be such an equality. Poor will be poor. Rich will be rich.

What I believe is in social equality. Not financial. It can be achieved even there is no financial equality.
Me too thought of it. I hate everyone who discriminates others on the basis of cast, creed, race or color.

Hmm.. You look very bad. Those people don't even mind putting color on us these days.
Yes. I know. I saw it.

How?
I used to watch us on the reflections of those vehicles' glasses.

Look at those people. Everything changed. The way they speak, dress, live..
Yes. It changes very fast now.

Do you see that old couple? On that corner.
Yes I do.

You see they still hold their hands. Its been 30 years. Still.
Yes. Everything changed. But not LOVE.

I wish if I could kiss thee.
I wish if my dream comes true.

You name it [4]

This world is a big hospital
All the people are sick here,
rotting and dying.

Dear,
Lets get out of here.

We go to the terrace,
me in my white shirt
and you in your light blue salwar
sun setting behind us.
your toes on mine,
You stand there,
completely in my arms
and your arms around my neck,

I love you,
you whisper through your fingertips.
and I respond with a smile.

Then you kiss me
Slowly, gently,
and
all the whole world melt between our lips

Thats the plan.

You;

The fear I feel when I look down from a suicide point,
The heartbeat I skip unknowingly when I see a huge waterfall,
The calm feeling I get watching the tides on a sunset,
The happiness I feel when I win those little things..

Everything remind me of you,
sometimes as the fear of losing you.
sometimes as the happiness of having you.

May be,
I have only one emotion.
And
That is You.

Suicide;

He/She was helpless. He/She couldn't take it anymore.
He/She was too weak to deal with it.

He/She put an end to it
He/She didn't know that there were better ways to deal their problems.

I wont blame him/her.
People talked about the tragedy. Did a psychological study. Published papers. 

Nobody cared him/her much. People on this earth are very selfish. They don't have time to care for others.
They seem to be on an important game. Just to win a horrible death at end.

A friend's friend committed suicide. Please pray for his soul. Thank you.

You name it [3]

I thought:

You are thinking I am busy.
and I am ignoring you.
That you are no more there in my thoughts.
But the mistake was your's.
And so on.

Until:

Our eyes met,
and froze for a few seconds.

Then:

All thougths vanished.
And there were only regrets.

I wish

I could see it coming. Always
Even before it hit me.
And I was afraid of it, Always.
But you have kind of saved me,
Or I must say you have saved me, Always

But I'm still afraid of it.
What if I had failed,
what if you couldn't save me,
For once.

I know I must be strong.
But I dont know how to fight,
Or with whom.

But, when my face turns white,
My heartbeat almost reaches my ears,
My legs refuse to move,
And, I feel a lump in my throat,
I can only wait, For you,
To come and save me.

I wish I were stronger,
At least as much, people presume of me.

Incomplete!

Its when you really want to live you realize the death
And at the moment you realize death, you lose all your youthfulness
There is no life then,
Its just waiting, killing time.
I wish if I could, live happily and forget death.
I never knew, still I dont know, neither I think I ever will,
Find, why the thoughts of death always end in you.
I always thought of death as departing you.
Time has given you a lot of faces
And sometimes I get confused who are you in those.

I've lots of incomplete posts in my lap. The thing is they will remain same. So posted one.